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Cool story, bro’
Last weekend I got (accidentally) punched in the head in a bar by some crazy boy ‘dancing’ to ‘move, bitch, get out the way!’
Of all the things that could possibly happen. Of all the songs that could possibly have been playing. Fate just had to whack it all together and throw it my way.
I get this kind of shit all the time.
Seriously.
Fucking typical.
A seal helping a helpless turtle get back into the water.
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OMG AWWWWWWWW :3
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Ghetto Fabulous:
This is what happens when I get bored.
I did these drawings out of boredom quite a while ago and recently found them. It really made me smile. I love them so much because they’re so odd and superfluous. A kangaroo on a pogo stick?! Cat with balloons and a bus timetable?! Why on earth did I draw that :S Also, I am majorly proud of them. Usually I do not draw, I’m not an artist of any sort. I generally stick to scribbles of trees and what not, and if I do an amazing drawing, I light-box it and then colour/paint it in. I’m far better with colour than I am at actually drawing, so I think these turned out pretty darn well considering I drew them free-hand and am totally lacking in skill.
Yay me and my oddness!
I’m not sleepy, so I figured this would be a fine way to pass the time:
1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up.
Pachuca Sunrise - Minus The Bear
One Short Day - Wicked
Dark Clouds - The rakes
Here In Your Arms - Hellogoodbye
Tulips - Bloc Party
The Truth Is A Terrible Thing - You Me At Six
2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
I don’t know :/ I suppose a soul mate would be ideal and worthwhile?
3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.
- “If no prisoners were taken,” Bolkonsky went on, “the -
4) What do you think about most?
Currently? Naughty but nice kisses. Phooey!
5) What does your latest text message from someone else say?
“James Weston Commented on your status: Hahaha this is the best status ever! x”
6) Do you sleep with ____ or without ______ on?
Say what? Umm… All lights off, and wearing pants and a t-shirt? :/
7) What’s your strangest talent?
At the moment it seems to be being a total fuck-up. I don’t really have a strange talent.
8) Girls…. (finish the sentence); Boys…. (finish the sentence)
Girls care too much; Boys don’t care enough…. ?
9) Ever had a poem or song written about you?
Not that I can recall. Wait. Just one short one by a once fabulous gay friend: “Abilicious so delicious but she aint promiscuous.” Other than that I don’t know.
10) When is the last time you played the air guitar?
For the sake of this, I literally just did it. I’ll do it again now ………… There we go :)
11) Do you have any strange phobias?
People being anywhere near my feet. Paper cuts. Sometimes naked people genuinely terrify me.
12) Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?
Who hasn’t?
13) What’s your religion?
Atheist
14) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?
Smoking
15) Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
It depends. If I’m out with friends then in front, and any other time I pretty much prefer behind.
16) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?
I don’t have one. I don’t think anyone does anymore?
17) What was the last lie you told?
“I’m fine, honestly.”
18) Do you believe in karma?
I’m not so sure anymore
19) What does your URL mean?
Something my lovely Becca once called me; a twist on my name.
20) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?
I suppose love would have to count for both?
21) Who is your celebrity crush?
I have a fair few haha. But Rupert Grint is still up front.
22) Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
Nooooooooo!
23) How do you vent your anger?
Writing.
24) Do you have a collection of anything?
Not really.
25) Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
Phone. I can’t stand video chat.
26) Are you happy with the person you’ve become?
Sort of, I was, but recently I’ve not been as much of a good person as I thought I was.
27) What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?
Dogs fighting; The noise my cat makes when she eats. I have a nom nom cat. It tickles me.
28) What’s your biggest “what if”?
I’m not sure. I have a fair few.
29) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
I believe that there are things that can’t be explained. And I believe that there must be something else out there.
30) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.
The curtain. A chair
31) Smell the air. What do you smell?
Apple and blackcurrent
32) What’s the worst place you have ever been to?
A public toilet?
33) Choose East Coast or West Coast?
Neither. HA!
34) Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?
Oooooh. It’s impossible to pick!
35) To you, what is the meaning of life?
To do what makes you happy.
36) Define Art.
It’s a personal thing. Something that inspires you. Something that makes you feel something no matter what that feeling may be. Something beautiful that someone has created. Something natural. Everything is art in one way or another.
37) Do you believe in luck?
I’m not sure
38) What’s the weather like right now?
Rainy
39) What time is it?
01:31
40) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?
Nope. So no.
41) What was the last book you read?
I’m currently reading Misery by Stephen King
42) Do you like the smell of gasoline?
Yes
43) Do you have any nicknames?
Ashby; Beth; Abster….
44) What was the last movie you saw?
Pocahontas
45) What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?
Sliced forearms
46) Have you ever caught a butterfly?
Yes :)
47) Do you have any obsessions right now?
Nooo
48) What’s your sexual orientation?
I like boys; but I’m not opposed to kissing girls.
49) Ever had a rumor spread about you?
Many
50) Do you believe in magic?
No :(
51) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?
Not so much recently. But I do still hold grudges from high school.
52) What is your astrological sign?
Taurus
53) Do you save money or spend it?
Spend spend spend. Silly me.
54) What’s the last thing you purchased?
Skittles. Yum.
55) Love or lust?
Both. Can’t have love without lust.
56) In a relationship?
Nope
57) How many relationships have you had?
umm… 5. But only 1 has meant something.
58) Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
Yes. I look stupid when I do it though.
59) Where were you yesterday?
Here. I called in sick. Fuck work.
60) Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
Many things
61) Are you wearing socks right now?
No
62) What’s your favorite animal?
I like all. But I love my cat.
63) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?
I don’t have one. If they like me then they should like me for me. Fuck trying to win people over for the sake of it.
64) Where is your best friend?
At his house? In bed?
65) Spit or swallow?(;
Hahaha. Spit. I don’t want that shit in my mouth in the first place anyway lol. I guess this is why I’m single.
66) What is your heritage?
English? Bit of Scottish and Welsh? I’m not sure.
67) What were you doing last night at 12 AM?
Watching The Voice?
68) What do you think is Satan’s last name?
Gordon? Hahahaha. JK. Not that any of you get what I’m on about :/
69) Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?
No. Apparently this is a bad thing? :/
70) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?
I honestly don’t know. I do find myself quite irritating sometimes really :/
71) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?
Save the freaking dog. I’m late all the time anyway. They’re used to it.
72) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?
I’d tell people so that I could say goodbye. I’d do whatever the fuck I’d want to do. I’m honestly not sure.
73) You can only have one of these things; trust or love.
I’ll have to go with trust. You can’t have love without trust.
74) What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?
I have many.
75) What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?
5935
76) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?
Love. Comfort. Fun. Passion.
77) How can I win your heart?
Accept me for who I am. Laugh with me. Make me happy, not just generally, but with myself.
78) Can insanity bring on more creativity?
I suppose in some cases. In my case I just go blank :/
79) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?
I don’t make decisions. I hate making decisions. I suppose giving my team leader that kiss on the cheek which I think led to the proper kiss. I think I’d always be wondering what it would be like if it hadn’t happened. I hate feeling like that.
80) What size shoes do you where?
5 - 6
81) What would you want to be written on your tombstone?
I don’t know. I’m too busy living, thank you very much.
82) What is your favorite word?
I love many words.
83) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.
That warm feeling when thinking of/when with that special someone
84) What is a saying you say a lot?
I have lots :)
85) What’s the last song you listened to?
The Liar And The Lighter - You Me At Six
86) Basic question; what’s your favorite color/colors?
I like all colours, but I especially love Yellow :)
87) What is your current desktop picture?
On my laptop I have a photo of me and Becca.
88) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?
Christ that’s a bit much :| I don’t think I would right now.
89) What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?
‘How do you feel about Steve?’
90) One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do?
Be majorly fucking freaked out. DUH!
91) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?
I suppose flying would be cool. Or telepathy. Either or :)
92) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?
I can’t choose.
93) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
The night I self-harmed in town I think.
94) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?
Oh my. What kind of opportunity? Sounds a bit sordid to me. No thanks.
95) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?
I never want to go on a plane. I’d give it to someone else.
96) Do you have any relatives in jail?
Nope
97) Have you ever thrown up in the car?
Of course
98) Ever been on a plane?
No
99) If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?
HIIIIIIIIIIIIII! :)
100) Give me your top 5 favorite blogs on Tumblr.
http://mononoke-lily.tumblr.com/
http://callmeponty.tumblr.com/
http://fuckyeahawesomehouses.tumblr.com/
http://picturesquelonging.tumblr.com/
The End Of A Wonderful Flirtationship.
My favourite team leader from work has left to become an assistant manager at a different store :( Sad face! Work is now officially pants without him there to brighten up my day and make work bearable. *sigh*
His last day was running the late shift on Sunday, which meant I would be the last person with him, and I would get a lift home.
It was a very enjoyable shift, despite counting down the hours to what would normally be ‘hurrah-it’s-home-time’, I was counting down to say goodbye. So obviously it didn’t drag like it normally does ¬_¬
We ate lots of sweets and had lots of cuddles (we always have sweets and cuddles, just maybe a small bag, and one or two cuddles) but except for that it was just like any other shift. Which made the end of the day worse.
I clocked out for him and that’s when I started welling up. He gave me his keys, made me lock up, and wouldn’t let me give him them back. I had to take them :( The drive home was very quiet because I was trying not to cry instead of my usual trick of turning the radio up and dancing like a retard. So when we pulled up outside my house and I got a cuddle, the floodgates opened. I couldn’t help but quietly weep onto his shoulder. It was a nice long cuddle with which I was silently begging him not to leave. It was at that point I decided to keep the promise I made a couple of weeks earlier, that he would get a kiss on the cheek before he left (this promise was made because he gave me a kiss on the cheek, I joked about it saying “Oh, you do spoil me.” He offered me another but I said no, like a very sensible lady, and made my promise instead.)
So I pulled slightly away from the cuddle, gave him his kiss, and as I turned away to hide my ruined and teary face, his mouth found mine. It was a wonderful kiss. I’ve never been kissed like that before. His technique needed a little work, but the strange thing is, I didn’t mind. I got lost. I honestly couldn’t say how long that kiss lasted. It felt like he’d waited a long time to kiss me, and it’s time I admitted that I’ve always sort of felt the same way, but I always told myself it wouldn’t happen; it shouldn’t happen. Sadly I was frozen out of shock and still had tears rolling down my cheeks. I stayed in my sort of half hug position while he moved one hand to the back of my neck and into my hair, the other went to my leg and up to my waist.
When we eventually slowly pulled apart I was still in shock. I said “Well, that was strange.” He laughed, I did a nervous giggle. Then I said “That was naughty.” He said “Yeah. It was.” And I slapped his face. Not hard by any means. I can’t hit people. But I still slapped him.
After another cuddle and finally saying goodbye, I got out of the car and into my house. I sat for about an hour lost inside my head, thinking about the kiss, thinking how it was so lovely but so wrong at the same time. I felt like it had happened in a dream. I eventually came to my senses and was feeling disgusted with myself. He’s married!!!!! And I kissed him back!!! I didn’t stop. I got lost in the moment. So I promptly ran upstairs and threw up. And my head’s been kinda messed up since, trying to make sense of it, trying to figure out how I feel and trying to stop hating myself because of it.
I’ll be seeing him again soon for his ‘leaving do’ with some of our colleagues for a meal and possibly town afterwards. It’s going to be impossible to be anything but normal with him. Even if I had a choice. Even if it was just me and him. He makes it impossible for me to be annoyed at him. He knows how to make me smile. And he can make me laugh just by saying my name and clicking his fingers. (I know that sounds odd, it’s a sort of old in-joke.) But I wish I could try and talk to him about it, or at least let him know that something’s not right.
Thankfully I’m not fucked up enough to want him so badly that I’d break up a young and happy family. Frankly, if he liked me enough to want to leave his wife, I’d have some serious concerns and I don’t think I could be with him.
It was such a lovely kiss, and I get stomach flips when I think about it, I just wish it wasn’t so naughty :(
And his brother-in-law is his replacement at my store.
Awkwarrrrd :/
FML?
*Sigh*
I wish I was as cool and creative as you guys.
The most I’ve got is a drawing of some badger’s drinking tea and hiding from the rain that I did at work :/
Yes, I will be uploading it as soon as I can :)
I actually really do like it!
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Where To Start…
… I had this friend; quite recently actually. I considered her one of my best friends. I was always there for her in a time of need or if she just wanted to have some fun. Although I recently fucked up. I hurt her, obviously without intention. Trouble is she doesn’t see it that way. She thought I hurt her out of malice. She thought I knew what the fuck I was doing.
I’ve never been one to bitch, but this really grinds my gears. She thinks that I’ve never really been that good friends with her. She thinks I was never there for her. She thinks I’ve never really liked her that much. She thinks that I didn’t apologise for what I’d done. She thinks that I’ve not tried to talk at all.
What a fucked up load of bollocks.
I really never get this angry. Honestly. But her outrageous audacity to throw around (That’s right. She’s been throwing this around!) these kind of accusations is simply mind boggling to me. Yes, I fucked up, and I most certainly did apologise; profusely! But I have never EVER been anything but a good friend to her. I have been there through thick and thin and held her hand on countless occasions. How dare she turn round and say such hurtful things to me.
One of the most consistent things in my life is people telling me that I say sorry too much. And it’s not that I say it for the sake of it, I genuinely am sorry for many things, whether I am responsible or not.
I’m not playing the innocence card. She has every right to never want to speak to me again. I respect that. But the way she’s gone about it is so shockingly pig headed and arrogant for her that I cannot help but feel that she is being totally unfair. Even my GBF, to his credit, has fallen out with her in my defense.
I have no idea what I’m supposed to do now though. She and myself have many mutual friends. Our very own teenage ‘outcasts’ gang. We were the punk-rock/emo cool kids.
It’s all gone to shit. Yes it’s my fault, but I was willing to sort this out, she’s refusing contact on the grounds that I’m making no effort. Hold up, love. I was the only one trying to initiate any form of contact and trying to fix this. You, my ‘innocent’ little sweetheart, responded with coldness, ignorance and sarcasm.
Well Fuck you.
I hate this. I hate all of it. I hate you for what you’re doing out of spite! I mean seriously?!?! Are you fucked in the head? I think so. We have many mutual friends, and YOU (Yes I initiated all of this, but I was friendly and willing to be a grown up about things) have fucked things entirely. Clearly what I did was a catalyst for you to bring up your earlier feelings of intense dislike.
Now our mutual friends have to pick sides; that or make some very awkward arrangements to maintain both friendships. Just because you’re so far up your own arse that you think no one should ever be friends with me again.
I still care for you, honestly I do. I really hope life starts working in you favour. Just remember that you have lost one of the most caring and attentive friends you’ve ever had.
And in case possible readers are wondering why I’m writing this on here to let out my feelings rather than saying it all to her, it’s because she won’t even look at me when I say hello. Every time I try to talk to her she turns away. Judging by her standards, she’s lucky that I actually care this much.
Yes I’ve fucking tried, you selfish cow. You had no right saying what you did to me, and you have no right to treat me like this.
I wish I could tell you this to your face, I really do. You being like this has finally given me the balls to realise that I don’t need people who think so little of me in my life.
I hope you’re happy with your new ‘friends’. But I can guarantee that they won’t be there for you like I was.
So go ahead, have fun with your life. Because I certainly do not want you in mine.
(GAHHHHHH! Angry rant over. Sorry, guys! We all have someone who makes/ has made, us feel like this though, right?)
